I sit staring into the screen’s abyss...knowing it awaits every letter strategically strung together to make words, sentences, and paragraphs that make some kind of sense. I get to decide what comes next. That scares me. I don’t want my words. I don’t have words. I can only rely on the truth of God’s words to carry comfort, joy, peace, and love out of an isolated, distant, and desperate heart. More time than I care to admit has passed between now and the New Year’s post, which is really horrible. And boy does that make it hard to catch somone one up, inluding myself, on my life.

Never the less, it seems I can't avoid writing any more. I so enjoy it. Honest. I am working again this year at the elementary school. Round one finishing up last years school starting in February was life in a 3rd and 4th grade special ed room. No more substituting! Hallelujah!!! Round two for this year is Kindergarten. I have been out of college for more than a year...Not the normal for up here. Everyone's still in college! Speaking of college, I live with four amazing college girls. I am so blessed. So I get to live vicariously through them and remember the life of college students. It's fun, and I love them so much. I can tell we are all going to learn more than we expected. So I await the new challenges God has for me this year in particular. I have stopped my missions search, though I will always, always, ALWAYS, have a missions heart. It can't be helped. In all my searching, and school starting up again, I have recently become super exhausted. So, I am set in a place that keeps me relying on God to wait patiently for ALL that he has...not just in missions, but with relationships, my family, and my career too. I have been thinking about counseling. Okay, so  I will tell you now, my next post is more than exciting for me, because it will hold my favorite flower  picture...EVER. I can't wait to post it because I love it so much. There is just something about it that grips my attention. I am enthralled, no fasciniated by it's beauty bestowed and created by God himself. So, be looking for my next photo post. I can't wait to share this picture!